If you will ever leave me
If you ever have any plans of leaving me, can you please consider some little things I want to have before, on or after that day comes. These will be the last things I want.
If you will ever walk away from my life, do me a favor.
Please walk a little bit faster, or run if you can, coz' I can't promise not to beg, I cannot promise not to follow you, I will. I will always do. So please do it faster, or if possible, ride a bus, a public utility jeepney, a bicycle, a horse, a unicorn, a dragon, a ferrari or lamborghini, I don't care! just please be fast so I won't keep up. So I will lose track of your face, of your warm embrace, of your smiles of our total travelled miles. Please make it faster than usual.
If you ever turn your head away from me, be certain.
Never ever look back again. Do not show me your eyes, I don't want to see you looking at me at one final glance, I don't want to see your face, I cannot remember your emotions, for it will only make it so hard for me to keep you out of my mind please, I still don't have enough reasons to forget you, when you turn your back on me stop making it so hard to forget you, don't look at me one last time, because I can't promise not to cry, and I know, you will go back upon seeing me crying just because I look sad, but I'm not, at least I get to see the truth and stand for it. So now, look at my face everyday, every emotion so you don't have to look at me again one last time because it will break every single piece of me.
If you ever leave me, leave me a new piece of pen and paper.
Because without you, I won't be able to write the same way again. Because my old pen is for writing your name, every single drop of ink represents you, reminding me to write about you, every stroke of the hand, is in the sway of the music of your love, if you leave me, there is no sway, no way to write. Every line on my paper describes my love for you, unending, extending in both directions, as pure as it's color, as blank it may appear but always ready to be changed, uplifted, will never be crumpled. that my love can only touch yours and produce beautiful pieces and without you, I just can't. And if you will, I'll write you one final goodbye, but please don't ever ever tell me that it's beautiful. It will only make things worst and put me into writing more again, just leave me a straight line, a ball point, a tiny dipper of ink, so I can burn it and forget of knowing how to write again.
If you ever don't come back, show me a new sky, take the old one.
I cannot stand to look at it everyday, every detail of it reminds me of you, every cloud, is a shape of what we wanted to do, a dog, a long motorcycle ride, a journey, a fluffy morning, a movie date, every single cloud isn't as appealing as it was before, it is slowly drifting towards each other forming a storm around me, every star is as shinny as every promise made, I won't find anyone new, I wont leave you, I love you, I'm always here for you, and every star is slowly dying, exploding into black holes, unto unidentified worlds until every promise is a dark matter that no one will ever look at, bring me an empty sky to write with new promises of my own, to start again and please make sure to never cross my sky again, cause you can't be trapped, into my vast layers of protective atmospheric gases, I won't rescue you. I will not, I know, someone else will.
If you will ever leave me, take all the memories.
Because I will delete every physical means of remembering you, every picture, every bus ride ticket, every empty pringles container, every pen that you have held, every poem for you, I will burn it. It will only contribute to the weight I'm carrying inside of me that is un-deletable, every photographic memory of your smile, every punchline, every joke, every bus ride sitting next to you, every metaphor, every description of your face that is carved inside of me it will never be forgotten, your smile, how your lips curl up to the edges when you call my name, the feeling is always the same. And I cannot carry this with me anymore, I have to move on, I can't afford to have excess baggage, I can't be stranded, I have to go.
Because when you leave me, there is no going back,
I will remove every single trace of your touch from my shoulder on how comfort me, form my wrists on how you pull me to every undecided destinations, on my heart, on my mind, on this very floor, I will remove every leaf that leads us to the same place over and over again so we do not cross roads again. And when you leave me, I will start walking into various directions, not following the opposite for yours so that If ever you and I extended indefinite on both directions, we'll never meet. Will never always be parallel
And if you leave me, say it out loud.
So i get to hear it clear and loud, so I may know when to start finding a new will to live, if you will leave me.
If you will ever walk away from my life, do me a favor.
Please walk a little bit faster, or run if you can, coz' I can't promise not to beg, I cannot promise not to follow you, I will. I will always do. So please do it faster, or if possible, ride a bus, a public utility jeepney, a bicycle, a horse, a unicorn, a dragon, a ferrari or lamborghini, I don't care! just please be fast so I won't keep up. So I will lose track of your face, of your warm embrace, of your smiles of our total travelled miles. Please make it faster than usual.
If you ever turn your head away from me, be certain.
Never ever look back again. Do not show me your eyes, I don't want to see you looking at me at one final glance, I don't want to see your face, I cannot remember your emotions, for it will only make it so hard for me to keep you out of my mind please, I still don't have enough reasons to forget you, when you turn your back on me stop making it so hard to forget you, don't look at me one last time, because I can't promise not to cry, and I know, you will go back upon seeing me crying just because I look sad, but I'm not, at least I get to see the truth and stand for it. So now, look at my face everyday, every emotion so you don't have to look at me again one last time because it will break every single piece of me.
If you ever leave me, leave me a new piece of pen and paper.
Because without you, I won't be able to write the same way again. Because my old pen is for writing your name, every single drop of ink represents you, reminding me to write about you, every stroke of the hand, is in the sway of the music of your love, if you leave me, there is no sway, no way to write. Every line on my paper describes my love for you, unending, extending in both directions, as pure as it's color, as blank it may appear but always ready to be changed, uplifted, will never be crumpled. that my love can only touch yours and produce beautiful pieces and without you, I just can't. And if you will, I'll write you one final goodbye, but please don't ever ever tell me that it's beautiful. It will only make things worst and put me into writing more again, just leave me a straight line, a ball point, a tiny dipper of ink, so I can burn it and forget of knowing how to write again.
If you ever don't come back, show me a new sky, take the old one.
I cannot stand to look at it everyday, every detail of it reminds me of you, every cloud, is a shape of what we wanted to do, a dog, a long motorcycle ride, a journey, a fluffy morning, a movie date, every single cloud isn't as appealing as it was before, it is slowly drifting towards each other forming a storm around me, every star is as shinny as every promise made, I won't find anyone new, I wont leave you, I love you, I'm always here for you, and every star is slowly dying, exploding into black holes, unto unidentified worlds until every promise is a dark matter that no one will ever look at, bring me an empty sky to write with new promises of my own, to start again and please make sure to never cross my sky again, cause you can't be trapped, into my vast layers of protective atmospheric gases, I won't rescue you. I will not, I know, someone else will.
If you will ever leave me, take all the memories.
Because I will delete every physical means of remembering you, every picture, every bus ride ticket, every empty pringles container, every pen that you have held, every poem for you, I will burn it. It will only contribute to the weight I'm carrying inside of me that is un-deletable, every photographic memory of your smile, every punchline, every joke, every bus ride sitting next to you, every metaphor, every description of your face that is carved inside of me it will never be forgotten, your smile, how your lips curl up to the edges when you call my name, the feeling is always the same. And I cannot carry this with me anymore, I have to move on, I can't afford to have excess baggage, I can't be stranded, I have to go.
Because when you leave me, there is no going back,
I will remove every single trace of your touch from my shoulder on how comfort me, form my wrists on how you pull me to every undecided destinations, on my heart, on my mind, on this very floor, I will remove every leaf that leads us to the same place over and over again so we do not cross roads again. And when you leave me, I will start walking into various directions, not following the opposite for yours so that If ever you and I extended indefinite on both directions, we'll never meet. Will never always be parallel
And if you leave me, say it out loud.
So i get to hear it clear and loud, so I may know when to start finding a new will to live, if you will leave me.
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